Lonely

I really don't know where these feelings came from but I'm feeling....down. It's hard to explain. Sometimes I get so caught up in the moment of what I'm doing that I'll forget about the true feelings going on inside of me. A majority of the time, this is a good thing because it allows me to not be upset. Then again, the more I go on hiding my feelings, the more I'll feel like crap later on when they resurface. I've said this before, I don't like to be alone unless I CHOOSE to be alone. If I don't want to be alone, then I put myself out there amongst the company of others. My parents are downstairs in their room and fall asleep on the couch from time to time. I'm just stuck here watching wrestling. Normally, I'd be excited to watch it but unless something cool happens, I'm bored out of my mind. It'll be nice to talk to someone whom I miss dearly though. It's been far too long since we last spoke and I think some catch-up time is in order. I guess I won't be lonely after all.