I'm Sorry For You...

...not sorry for me. I've realized just how much pain I can cause by doing the smallest things possible. Did I see it coming? Not really. I didn't care to pay much attention to the negative aspect of things. Every time I did, I stressed out. Not going to make the same mistake twice. I also realize that perhaps the things I do can be taken way out of line. Is that completely my fault? Personally, I don't think so, I'm just living my life. Apparently, that isn't possible and people are going to set rules for me and enforce them. Seriously, is that absolutely necessary? If this happens, I can guarantee all of you would be extremely happy yet I'm going to be the one living a horrible life. Maybe that's what you people want; to see me live in torture. How sick is that. It's such a damn shame that as humans we love to see pain inflicted upon others yet when it occurs to us we are struck with fear. Ever try dealing with having someone rule your life for you? It's already happened to me once and I was miserable. I very wisely ended that reign of terror and decided to focus on me. I'm going to focus on me because I'm what's important to myself. Call me selfish, I don't care. I still care about the people in my life and will do my best to be a good friend. Tonight is going well so far. I've had time to myself and relaxation. It's always a good thing to relax before taking final exams and juries. I'm only going to practice once or twice more for juries because I don't want to overdue my playing. Sight-singing will take precedent over everything though because I must maintain my 75% to pass with a C. Everything else I'm not too worried about. Please, don't freak out if I say that I want alone time. It's nothing personal to anyone; we all want to be alone sometimes. If this offends anyone, I'm sorry. I really am. I still love you all. I promise.