Lost

Seriously, what the FUCK did I do to deserve this. I put in so much effort yet it was all in vain. Nothing came out of it except me feeling even MORE like shit. Everyone who doubted me were right. I'm not fit out for anyone and I probably never will be. Whoever keeps saying I am is practically lying right in my face, something I do not appreciate. Nobody appreciates feeling helpless and useless. Sigh. I really do deserve to be alone. I'm getting tired of putting my focus into these so-called relationships that people want with me. It's all bullshit. Such crap. In any case, I'm just going to focus on my music. It's good to know at least one person cares about me a lot. I'm very thankful that this person is in my life. They know who they are.